sorry guys, i haven't had time or at least i dun think i had any to update this site.  since this is thanksgiving week even tho the special day has passed, i wanna take this time to thank my family, relatives, my gay brothers and friends, and all my xanga buddies.  i'm glad that you guys have some influence in my life.

a new year is coming up really fast and the semester is coming to an end.  looking back, i think i had some great moments and some not so great.  i lost some people and gained some.  the most important person i've gained is anh lucas, my god brother.  he's the next best thing to my actual brother.  thanks anh trai so much for being there for me .

starting with wed 11/26, i went on a sleeping streak.  after i was done with school, i went home and tried to get ready for my trip back to dallas for thanksgiving.  however, vincent called and asked me to come watch some movie with him and his son (his bf is visiting his parents).  they were bored.  i stayed at their place watching xmen 2 and the ring.  his apartment was a nice one.  i really like vincent as a friend but um ... he's kinda gross tho lol.  he raises rats beside a cute lil dog.  i left his house at 1 am and got lost on the way home given that he lives so far away from the city and the road was so dark.  i said i will never visit him again at nite lol.  i called my "honey" (if you will) on the way home, he was so worried.  i felt bad about it. 

things got interesting.  when i got home, instead of sleeping i chatted with my friends and packed my stuffs.  i didn't sleep at all.  i left my apartment at 5 am and drove 3 hrs back to dallas.  when i arrived in dallas, i wasn't sleepy at all so i went to the party at my uncle's house.  it was a huge party and lots of people were there.  after i finished munching food, i went str8 upstair and got myself some sleep.  i stayed at the place over night and woke up at 6.  my cousins and i went shopping at bestbuy, circuit city and microcenter.  we were trying to get some deal on computer but didn't get any at bestbuy and circuit city.  we went to microcenter and got a laptop um ... it was a OK deal.  i got myself some 30 blank dvds for just over $10.  i also checked out the new vm4500 cellphone from sprint.  i'm gonna get that video phone .  we were done with shopping around 7 in the evening.  i went back to my aunt's house and stayed overnight there.  it was fun.

things are going great between me and the guy.  he likes me a lot and i do too.  i'm gonna visit him this christmas.  he'll take me to major places in florida.  i hope by the time i return to texas, i'd know for sure if he's the right one.  wish me luck guys.

Quote of the day:  "I'm normally not a praying guy, but if you're up there, please save me Superman" ~ Homer

dear journal,

it's been an exciting time for me.  i can see that i might not be single in the near future.  i am happy and worried at the same time.  at the beginning of every relationship, things are always cool but willl they still be after a while?  like i said in my last entry (that entry was a century old lol), i've met a guy who knows my family pretty well.  so far he's been great.  he invited me to visit him in fl for this christmas and i have accepted.  i'm gonna give him a chance, give us a chance to see if we can click.  i dunno if i should pray for things to work out.  i mean i like being single but it's also nice to have a bf.  he has asked me to be his bf but i haven't given him my reply yet.  i dunno if i should have a long distance relationship lol.

i'm lazy now so have a great day everybody.

Quote of the day:  "I hope I didn't brain my damage!" ~ Homer

i haven't had much sleep lately.  i went sleepless on friday nite as well as sat nite.  i'm a bit too excited to sleep.  i'm still in state of shock and happiness over wuh faith has brought me someone who has so much in common with me.  we talked on the phone again and although we had a bit of a confusion, we did get everything straighthen out.  one thing i know for sure is i'm really glad to know him.

you know, i feel really comfortable chatting with him.  he makes me feel at ease and often time surprises me unexpectedly.  i think that he and i are meant to be something but i just dunno wuh it is.  the way how we know each other and the place where we came from, it seems so logical for me to find out more about him.  i'm so intrigued and interested in him.  he told me tonite that he's interested in me and would like to know more about me.  i feel comfortable enough with him that i'm willing to open myself up and to take risk.  i know if we go in so far and things don't work out, we'll both get hurt badly.  however, i feel good about this so i'm going by my gut here.

Quote of the day:  "Sometimes I feel like I'm being teased, like when God teased Moses in the dessert." ~ Homer

let me update ya on my life lol (like if there is anything important).  to anh trai, thanks for chatting with me and looking after your lil cute brother hehehe .  i love you anh trai and remember, your lil brother here always needs ur guidance .  to anh john, tony, truc, anh vincent, you guys are the best hehehe.  to vincent, my friend here in texas, i'm so grateful to having you as my friend.  dude, you're the luckiest guy in the world.  keep it up.

i went to fry's electronics to get myself some blank cds.  i bought myself 50-pack cds for 7 bucks.  they were on sale with a limit of one 50-pack cds.  i also got myself some cd label refill.  i had to burn some stuff so the label helps out a lot.  when i got into the car driving home, i noticed my front tire on the driver side is a bit underflated.  now this is a problem coz i pumped it up like 3 days ago.  i need to get my car to sears for a tire checkup.  vincent called me while i was stuck in traffic.  man, i was frustrated with austin (i35) highway around rush hour.  i believe that the turtle would probably crawl faster than cars lol.  vincent asked me what time do i wanna have dinner with him and his son since his bf left to visit his parents for the weekend and he has nothing to do.  i told him that we would meet around 7:15 at Buffet Palace (chinese restaurant).  it was 6:50 and i was like 1 minute away from my place.  after hanging up my cell, i got inside and stripped myself and got into the bathtub.  i took the shortest bath ever lol.  and yes, i did use shampoo and soap .  when i finally got dress, combed my hair and ready to go, it was 7:05.  i was like running out the door.  i dun want vincent to wait for me at the restaurant.  i drove onto i35 and thanks goodness the north bound was totally free of traffic.  i arrived at the restaurant at 7:15 but vincent was nowhere to be found.  i called his cell and he was 5 minutes away from the restaurant.  i waited there outside the restaurant enjoying the cool weather and a nite.  when he and his son, peter, arrived, we went in and ate so much.  we joked and he asked me about my love life.  i told him that i dun have a love life and he was like you're so picky man .  when we were done, we went to walmart supercenter.  vincent bought himself a lion slipper and toothpaste while peter got an action figure.  i got myself "finding nemo", almond joy, and renu (contact lense cleaner).  when i got home, i jumped onto my computer and clay, my friend from aussie, was in need of my comfort.  he was sad about his love life.  you know, sometimes wuh you want, you can't get it.  that's the problem with him.  two guys like each other but circumstances don't allow.  after chatting with him for a while, tony pvt me.  tony is my buddy and he's the happiest among all my friends.  i love all my friends btw.  while chatting with him, i went to gay.com vietnam room and to my wildest dream, someone pvt me.  i couldn't believe that faith has casted upon me some twist of life lol.  this person knows my family, where i used to live and where my grandma lives now.  he even knows my aunt's (uncle's wife) family.  added to the twist, the day he came to the us is also my bday lol.  he's chinese and i'm 25% chinese as well.  we talked on the phone for like 4 hrs.  it was one of the nicest and most surprising moments in my life.  i'm so happy to know someone like him.  at least i can relate to him coz he used to live in my area.  thanks for your friendship .  after our conversation has ended, i watched finding nemo and boi, i like it hehehe.  the art/animation is excellent. 

well, i'm off now.  have a great day everybody.  life is good .

Quote of the day:  "If adults don't like their jobs, they don't go on strike.  They just go in every day and do it really half-assed.  That's the American way."  ~ Homer

bullshit!!!  i hate sobs that think they are the center of the world.  cut the bullshit.  i'm always open to new friends but i dun need anyone to tell me how i should live my damn fucking life.  if you dun like me, you're welcome to get ur ass out of my face.  don't ever think that you're too cool to hang out with me.  fuck.  i dun need sob like that.  morever, i dun need people to come up to me and expect me to fall in love or sleep with them.  i AIN'T a slut.  and damn, if people think they can get their hand on me, they must be really dreaming.  just because i'm always nice and easy going and go with the flow doesnn't mean i'm gullible or for sale.  for crying out loud, i'm a heart-breaker.  i'd love nothing more than crushing these bitches' hearts.  i guess they haven't heard of the phrase "being a flower on the outside but a serpent underneath."  i dun have a drop of pity for these people.  don't get me wrong.  i hate seeing people hurt but i ain't gonna stand defenselessly and take punches from people.

 now pardon me for the language that i used.  i feel much better after getting those thoughts out of my head.  jesus, i always wanna be around with my friends.  i wanna be pleasant around people but i can't be if people keep pulling out punches on me.  i've learned from the great people in history like teddy roosevelt.  he once said to "speak softly and carry a big stick."  i am pleasant and adorable to be around.  my desire to see people happy sometimes clouds my judgment but dun take advantage of me.  once i come to my realization, i'm gonna be worse than hell.

i've made a mistake last weekend.  i might have hurt one person.  i'm sorry if you are hurt.  like i said before, i'm 22 and i'm not ready to settle down.  i enjoy being single.  i might have wanted a bf but at this moment, being single is wuh i need. 

Thanks for reading this far.  i know it's the most negative post here.

Quote of the day:  "To be great is to be misunderstood" ~ Raph Waldo Emerson